My friend whose a Marine just invited me over for a high intensity interval/combat training. Lets see how this goes hahaha
How the trainer looks:
How the other girls look
and then there is me
Everyone go check her out!
Let me just start off by saying that I love how all week I was eating great, pretty much all clean, working out a lot, and had no time to blog.
Today I didn’t eat the best. Feel awful, but oh look at that I have time to blog haha.
Basically this morning I caved in at my job and got bacon, egg, and cheese on a biscuit. And it’s one of those ridiculously huge heave biscuits. I was actually sort of disappointed by it. It wasn’t as good as it’s been in the past and all day I just felt blehh and guilty about it. And I am totally ok with treat meals, but maybe not one at 7 in the morning.
So for lunch I tried to make up for it. I had the veggie quiche and kale chips which I posted earlier. It was sooooo good. And I was feeling a bit better. Then my friends convinced me to get taco bell which I haven’t had in months. Once again I gave in, ate it, and have just felt bloated and lousy ever since.
What didn’t help was going clothes shopping right afterwards. And also bikinis. My esteem got shot and I felt worse and kept telling myself it’s all in my head.
And even worse I was supposed to go out with friends later on tonight and told them I wasn’t feeling well, but honestly I was just feeling depressed about myself. Which once again I’m mad at myself for because I’m normally one of the most positive people around. (it was also that I am extremely tired and have to be up at 5:30 tomorrow as well)
I just hate this habit I get into. I do so so well and then after a few days it all falls apart. I’m going to try my hardest to make sure it doesn’t happen again any time soon. Because I love myself enough to know it isn’t good and I don’t need that negativity in my life.
I have so many different things I want to blog about and absolutely no time!
Tomorrow during my lunch break I’ll try to compose something, but in the mean time just know I have been eating healthier than ever, and trying to work out when I can. I’ve also been feeling great and getting a lot more sleep.
But one of the things that is helping this is giving myself a curfew so goodnight everyone :)